Author’s Note
It is my second work. Thank you.
TL’s Note
I try to change to Eric POV
[Oh, oh-oh-ohhhhh !!]
I was crying in despair in the wild and scorched wilderness.
As far as the eye can see, it is a sea of blood.
Hundreds and thousands of people dyed the wilderness red.
I knelt to the ground, which was dyed red in the middle of the sea of blood, and was holding the remain of Irene body.
[Irene …! I’m sorry …! Well, I couldn’t …]
It was too late when I arrived at the battlefield and killed dozens or hundreds of people to reach her.
[I swore … to protect you …! This time, I lost too…]
–She was a beautiful person.
Long jet black hair reaching her waist was flowing on the red ground.
On her clear white skin as if to face the jet-black hair, the bright blood color that would have been scattered was conspicuously visible.
Her eyelids closed — never will open again.
[Irene …! Irene …!]
I holds her who still has warmth in my chest and continues to call her name while crying.
–Please forgive me, sorry.
As I said that, I kept calling her name as if to plead.
A minute, Ten minutes — I didn’t know many times did I do it?
The tears had dried up and no longer flowed, I was just restless looking at her face.
–I lost everything.
I was deep in thought with words and feelings in my heart.
When I was little, I lost my parents — I lost my childhood friend, who I admired like my sister.
After that, there was also my best friend who supported me who was despaired.
My best friend was also killed because of my mistake.
If I made a different choice at that time, my best friend will still alive.
And one thing left for me to live – I had Irene.
My parents, my childhood friend, and my best friend have always supported me.
I loved her and she loved me too.
But — she is dead now.
–In front of me.
—- I think it’s okay …
—-I lost everything … There is no point in living in this world anymore.
I holds the dagger that I had in my hand.
— I’m sorry, Irene … I vowed to live together …
—- I’m going over there now … wait …
Then I cut off my neck.
I falls down on my back while feeling the rapid flow of blood from my body.
My mouth also has a bloody taste and when I cough, there’s blood pumped up from the throat.
The ground, which was bright red from the beginning, is dyed in brighter red.
When I looked up, the sky was blue, and beautiful white clouds were flowing.
Comparing with the sea of red blood, the blue and clear sky was beautiful.
— Irene … It was such a blue sky when I met you …
I was watching the running light near the end of my death.
All unpleasant memories and happy memories that pass through my heaf disappear in an instant.
When I take a look at the body next to me, there is my loved one who I has hug until a while ago.
— When I died, I wanted to see you off and die, but I’m happy just because you’re next to me …
When I think about it, the pain and sensation suddenly disappear.
The consciousness goes away, and at the end I feel the feeling that everything is gone.
I, Eric died.
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